HOLDING ON TO HER

She was all fair & lovely, beautiful dark eyes and… Everything about her was just so angelic! Well now, when I try to recall her face… I don’t even know if the face I see when I close my eyes is hers or is it simply a face I created in my mind. All I remember about her is may be from what I have written in my blog and of course later, read many, many times. Though now it seems perfectly obvious that it is impossible to remember a face in only in a few momentary glances… but back that night, on that bus, I felt her face will never leave my mind and I will remember her for my life. But then, it didn’t happen.

So now I curse myself for not staring at her a little longer, for not talking to her more than just a few introductory words, for not asking her even her name, leave aside exchanging phone nos. I curse myself for not going on that bus stand the next week or any time again, because I was scared of dealing with her absence.

Now I feel that it was not meant to be just a small unforgettable incident. Don’t know if I feel this because I recently watched the beautiful movie, ‘Serendipity’, or because of the fact that she was the only girl who not only touched my heart but also filled it with her self. She has been a huge reason that since her I have no posts on my blog. I think she has been irreplaceable and I have been invariably comparing all other girls with her whereby they fail to conquer over her and also, or so, over my heart.

I have not written this article to get her or to get to her, though I have to admit that I do wish that something like this happens. I don’t think that it would be impossible to live without her or that I would not find love now onwards. But she surely would make my heart congested. I don’t want to wonder the rest of my life about ‘what would have happened if…’ kind of a thing. I don’t want to regret not holding on to her. Therefore, once in a while I let myself swirl in the convolution of her thoughts and memories. It is like travelling a childhood road after many years and trying to find things that you could recognize and feel them once again as if reliving as the child you once were.

Even though I don’t remember the visuals of the incident very well, I do experience the feelings on that night when I try to recall her. Even now I get the churning in my stomach, the excitement and the possessed feeling when I try to reorganise her face in my mind. I think, cherishing her remnant memories is the immensely satisfying feeling as like admiring an ‘Eiffel Tower’ or a ‘Taj Mahal’.

I think that with the passage of time she would skirt into the distant memories and would dissolve into a pleasant memorabilia. But I don’t want her to be just in my mind consuming a finite number of brain cells. I need her to be in my life, be my life. I never thought I will get so consumed with any person. My blog was just meant to appreciate beauty and not to fall in love with any person. But love happen to me, unknowingly. Its crazy falling in love with somebody you hardly know anything about. But I hope I don’t keep holding on to her so tightly that she feels I have clawed into her. All I want is to get with her or get over with her. Hopefully, after penning down my feelings, I can make some space in my heart for some one as special or nearly as special like the peri, the inamorata of ‘the beauty & the bus’.

After the ‘The beauty & the bus’ post on my blog, I befriended a friend of hers; a guy; really warm and welcoming. Though he refrained from even sharing her name with me, he did let me know that today; the Twelfth of December is her birthday. So I would like her to have this memoir as a birthday gift from an admirer, a lover and a friend named Tanmay.

Some people are meant to be together. Hope both of us find the perfect match.

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The Soft Chocolate Desire

I had been to the ICAI’s National Diamond Jubilee IT Conference, hosted by ICAI’s Pimpri-Chinchwad Branch at Balewadi. The conference was for two consecutive days. On both these days there was this female (a new friend of mine has this knack of calling a girl or a lady as ‘female’, quite amusing at times)… well this female… I am confused should I describe her as a girl or as a madam. In most probability she is a chartered accountant. But she didn’t look of her age. She was so cute, lovely, curious like a child… don’t know curious about what, but it did make her look even more prettier. Our eyes met quite a few times quietly as if our looks were embracing each other. Her curious eyes were breathtakingly mysterious. Such that you just go on drowning into them trying to analyse what is it? - Curious charm or charming curiosity. Well she was lovely on the first day but not lovely enough to be mentioned here. She was in formal clothing with a green-white stripes shirt. Quite cool but didn’t bring out her beauty well. On the second day she looked so much deep and desirable in the chocolate coloured punjabi that she wore that I was mesmerised and completely engrossed into her. She was there only in the morning and I couldn’t see her for the rest of the day. But in the name of her beauty I gave myself a treat of a huge dairy milk later in the day. And I am so happy that every time for the rest of my life whenever I would be having chocolate I would be reminded of her, her beauty and her curious charm.

Katrina – The Beautysutra’s Sweetheart

Talking about Katrina, she is considered to be the most beautiful face of the world by many across the world. A fit figure, a glowing skin, a beautiful smile which makes her photographs look awesome anytime are some of the assets of this beauty queen. But what I like the most about her are her lips. After Angelina Jolie it is Katrina’s lips that make me stare at them with my mouth wide open. If it is being difficult for you to recall how her lips are, then recall the Aamsutra ad instead. That one lucky drop that doesn’t fall into her mouth but instead lands on her lips was not like that for no reason. Even the ad makers knew exactly what the beauty of the beautiful Katrina is. Considering the various faces of Katrina that we have watched right from her Boom’s sexy look to her latest Aamsutra’s killingly sensuous look, she has indeed brought out her beauty in a beautiful way. For me, personally speaking, the Namaste London’s Katrina was the best I have seen so far. The lovely curls to her lush hair compel us to lose ourselves in her beauty. She is the heavenly beauty for me and many others. It’s just very rightly obvious why she has been the most googled lady on the globe in 2008 and the sexiest lady of 2008 according to a UK men’s magazine.

Introduction

My Tryst With Beauty

I always had this thing with beautiful faces… I like them. Every time my breath is filled with a bloom of ladies perfumed air which is so exotic, so rich that I wish I never exhaled. I have been very dedicated in praising and appreciating beauty all through my life. The way I have done that till now is by thinking about every beautiful face and building dream palaces around these fairy faces all day long and all night through. So this is my new way of appreciating beauty… in any of its amazing and mesmerizing forms as is pleased by me. This blog is dedicated to all that beauty is – on the inside and the outside. This blog is for all those who are beautiful and who touched my heart either consciously or otherwise. So if you think you are beautiful and you think that I might have noticed you then you would be surely be described in this beautiful blog and in a very beautiful way. So check out is that you…?