Loving Neytiri
Considering beauty as an abstract thought would be limiting it into definitions and criteria. Rather, beauty is a subjective expression, a reaction, a feeling. Beauty is like the wind; you can’t see it, but you can feel it.
Neytiri: an unfashionable, ugly girl by ‘Earth’ standards. What could possibly, of her looks or her features, make anyone say, “loving Neytiri”? The question is wrong enough. What makes a person loving is not her/his looks, features, fashion sense, attitude or behaviour. What makes any person lovable is the entitlement that s/he has over our expressions, our feelings.
Neytiri wasn’t an instant charmer. But she had me transfixed right from her first scene (ready in a stance to shoot the arrow at Jake). The poise she had, which later coupled with concern, turned into a soft ambiguity of mixed feelings which all got colourfully depicted in her beautiful huge eyes. Each blink shuttered her inside my mind. She was packaged with so many feelings, she expressed through she slender, toned, strong body. But I approached her only through her eyes. Her eyes were so big and lovely, I could find my life in them. Her attitude, her charisma allured me. I liked her the way she was different from the usual… the normal you may say. Her lovely tail added poise to her movements. Her sharp canines cut into my heart, every time I imagined them on my lips (I couldn’t help not imagining; after the interval…). Her strength, her independence, her aggression all impressed me. I think I like women who don’t need a man just to feel protected in his arms. Come on what are we…? Bodyguards? Neytiri loved him because he entitled her feelings. And I loved Neytiri because she entitled my feelings. I was so hugely impressed by her that the next day after the movie, I had downloaded her wallpapers, video clips, screensavers, themes and what not. She was so completely over my mind that I, at one point of time, doubted if I could get back to loving ‘normal’ beauties.
I had her wallpaper applied as desktop background. My mom, my dad, my granma, all were puzzled ‘why?’ There was no point in trying to make them understand. But when I discussed my feelings with my buddies they too were confused and all of a sudden found me to be a hilarious person who makes the atmosphere jovial. Awww…! All are so used to conventional beauties that any romance is always blinded by the conventional necessities and requirements bagged to it. Love is a feeling, an emotion; not a job-post to be filled by criteria. Neytiri helped me understand what is that I really like about a girl. Neytiri helped me replace many conventional myths within me regarding scope and boundaries of love and beauty. I no more feel I have the control over who has entitlement over my feelings.
Loving Neytiri has been an experience… a deep experience.
