The reason I started this article of mine with a few lines from James Blunt's song "You're Beautiful" is because of a lot of reasons. Firstly, for a guy staying all alone in Bandra, the most happening suburb in Mumbai, it's not uncommon to see a pretty face in a place as crowded as Mumbai. To hell with the hustle-bustle all around, when you see such an angelic beauty, you can't help but stop and stare. Even in the song, James admitted he didn't know what to do when he saw a girl as beautiful as her. Here too it's the same thing with me. I see many ravishing beauties and have also had my share of trysts with beauty. I'll reveal them to you as and when I feel like. But trust me even if it is a long wait, I can assure you all it'll be worth the wait. Till next time, peace!
Considering beauty as an abstract thought would be limiting it into definitions and criteria. Rather, beauty is a subjective expression, a reaction, a feeling. Beauty is like the wind; you can’t see it, but you can feel it.
Neytiri: an unfashionable, ugly girl by ‘Earth’ standards. What could possibly, of her looks or her features, make anyone say, “loving Neytiri”? The question is wrong enough. What makes a person loving is not her/his looks, features, fashion sense, attitude or behaviour. What makes any person lovable is the entitlement that s/he has over our expressions, our feelings.
Neytiri wasn’t an instant charmer. But she had me transfixed right from her first scene (ready in a stance to shoot the arrow at Jake). The poise she had, which later coupled with concern, turned into a soft ambiguity of mixed feelings which all got colourfully depicted in her beautiful huge eyes. Each blink shuttered her inside my mind. She was packaged with so many feelings, she expressed through she slender, toned, strong body. But I approached her only through her eyes. Her eyes were so big and lovely, I could find my life in them. Her attitude, her charisma allured me. I liked her the way she was different from the usual… the normal you may say. Her lovely tail added poise to her movements. Her sharp canines cut into my heart, every time I imagined them on my lips (I couldn’t help not imagining; after the interval…). Her strength, her independence, her aggression all impressed me. I think I like women who don’t need a man just to feel protected in his arms. Come on what are we…? Bodyguards? Neytiri loved him because he entitled her feelings. And I loved Neytiri because she entitled my feelings.
I was so hugely impressed by her that the next day after the movie, I had downloaded her wallpapers, video clips, screensavers, themes and what not. She was so completely over my mind that I, at one point of time, doubted if I could get back to loving ‘normal’ beauties.
I had her wallpaper applied as desktop background. My mom, my dad, my granma, all were puzzled ‘why?’ There was no point in trying to make them understand. But when I discussed my feelings with my buddies they too were confused and all of a sudden found me to be a hilarious person who makes the atmosphere jovial. Awww…! All are so used to conventional beauties that any romance is always blinded by the conventional necessities and requirements bagged to it. Love is a feeling, an emotion; not a job-post to be filled by criteria.
Neytiri helped me understand what is that I really like about a girl. Neytiri helped me replace many conventional myths within me regarding scope and boundaries of love and beauty. I no more feel I have the control over who has entitlement over my feelings.
Loving Neytiri has been an experience… a deep experience.
It is so generally that i feel that i'm in love with you.
Never could I think what would have been if it wasn't true.
I always do believe taht we are meant to be together.
I always have the feeling that we are breathing for each other.
But then one day it shouldn't happen,
you have to leave me all of a sudden.
Because you feel that I dont love you.
Or you feel that I dont love you enough.
So I wanna tell you and wanna let you know.
You are the most precious and you are the only one I love.
You are the most wonderful thing ever happened to me.
Trust me, I would always stay by you, no matter what it be.
All my life and even after, I will always love you conditionally....
there is a difference in the way i think & in the way i do things. u may or may not like it. but i know that this difference would make all the difference.
